Aurora's Poetomania

Will you mourn me when I'm gone? Will you hurt deep and cry a lot? Will you lose appetite and cry In thought Of the times we spent making plans for us? Will you stare at the stars and make a wish That it all be nothing but a dream Me being gone and you being hurt Will you wish for us to be together in our hut Will you wander around at night Weary and tired for lack of sleep Will you close your eyes and hold out your hand In wait of mine sneaking up your arm Will you mourn me when I'm gone If a shooting passes above your roof Will you remember the fault in our stars And pray that the star takes me a message Of the true way your heart bleeds Will you tell it tales long kept Secret. The things we did The havoc we wrought Will you, if nobody else, mourn me when I'm gone.

Time ticks. Slowly at first... put me at an eager stop Barely able to wait to grow Desperate for age Wanton for independence. Thus I have lived Thus I'm now dying I was eager to grow To I carried dolls when I was one I was desperate to cook So I mixed sand in a bowl as I waited to be called for dinner I was desperate to be grown up To be married And now I just want to go back It draws nigh everyday That place that I was eager to go And now I step back in horror As I'm forced to see my destination from here I wanted to grow I got my wish And now i desperately need to stop growing I used to love life I used to love love I used to love babies I used to want to be responsible But now I just wanna be a child again Play in the sand and not feel guilty I just wish to not know I just wish to not care I'm growing up Slowly but surely, I'm dying too I feel life seep out of me as it seeps in I feel the draw into the world of adults The world ...

The last time I loved was yesterday The next time I'll love is right now Life seems to have a penchant for disgrace Death seems to know only the bows Bows and spears escort me from cupid's gates today And my dance of puberty ends in a daze The last time I fought was yesterday The next time I'll bleed is today The place I danced was in the square With bare shoulders and bobbing breasts As my hips sway in the darkness and I felt the sweat flow west The spring of my steps call to winter And the sounds of my voice begs spring That last time I felt the pulse again As the earth breathed into me The last time my consciousness opened to you Was that day when it rained in the zoo As we made love in the thick mud And the spirits roamed the pool The last time I felt love was yesterday The same day that you left Never to return to my arms again As the gods have maybe said! Maybe to return to my arms again As the fates have clearly said

I'm going back to the time when your lying was truth to me... I've always been a slave to this passion I find myself struggling within the confines Of devastation that is really love Of destruction that feels like passion I can feel the star's falling off the plane's of reality I can feel myself dying more in my illusions I know it's not good but I can't help it My soul dies with your last gift to me My heart cries out for this single deed Of help that only you can give.